Today’s blog post is just going to be raw and honest. I don’t have the energy for fancy edits or polished thoughts. Truth is, I’m tired. Motherhood burnout is real, and I’ve been feeling it heavy these past two weeks.
Why I Haven’t Posted in a While
I feel bad for not posting for two weeks. I got a couple freelance editing jobs and the way my anxiety is set up, I’m not able to rest until I get those videos out to the client. As you can imagine, the baby doesn’t allow me to do much else.
Tiny Pockets of Peace
I will say I have been trying to find little moments of peace and rest where I can. I enjoy a good shower when I get the chance. Check out my post on how to elevate your shower. To take it a step further I’ve been putting more effort into body and skincare. My skin is soft and I smell delicious. But only on those shower days which unfortunately isn’t everyday. It just is what it is.
The Weight of Motherhood and Mental Load
Despite the little moments of peace that I get I still am feeling very overwhelmed. My husband helps out here and there but let’s be honest, moms get the short end of the stick when it comes to raising children. You don’t really understand until you’re in it. I find myself just wanting to cry and the smallest things will tip me off.
Like this morning, I’m trying to pump and my son is hollering. So I give him a bottle and he falls asleep for maybe 10 minutes. After I’m done pumping I try to put him down for a proper nap and now he’s not having it. He wants to play and yell and chew on things. Thus throwing off our schedule for the rest of the day. It sounds silly but like omg I’m at my wits end.
The Guilt, the Exhaustion, and the Love
I used to follow this one lady on social media. She was always complaining about her kids. She’s cool but I used to get annoyed, like I don’t want to hear about that all the time. Now, with a kid of my own, I GET IT! Motherhood is really hard. It’s easy to lose yourself. Like all I want to do is work on my little blog, deep clean my hair, and do my nails. Instead, I’m at the mercy of my son who won’t even nap if he’s not laying on me.
Looking into his little face, he’s so precious. I just love it when he’s happy and smiling and peaceful. When he’s not, I suffer. This is life right now. I’m not going to pretend like everything is great. Yes there are things to be grateful for. At the end of the day, the day gotta end. The one thing that keeps me going is that maybe tomorrow will be better.
What’s Coming Next
Anyways I just got another two video projects. Hopefully it won’t take another two weeks before you hear from me again. I am working on a blog post about Bell Hooks’ All About Love and one on ways to use ChatGPT to help you in your glow up. Stay tuned for those.
Final Thought + Affirmation
I’ll leave you with one last thought. The current affirmation on my night stand says “I already have what it takes.” Whether it be motherhood, or self development, or building a business… you got this ladies! We got this!
